The beggining

I woke up that day and I was in a good mood for everything, for work ,for hanging out and all activities of that day , because it was Friday.But I haven't even dream about what would that day bring to me at the end.

 Few days before , I started to text with an old friend that I met one year ago in the summer. I remember I was thinking about that situation when friends of friends take you to met some guys to hang around, to be friends or maybe something more , but for me that was something less. I have never liked this kind of meetings. They were like a bad blind dates. So I wasn't hanging out so often with them. We were peaty different ,with other kind of taste in almost everything. So when they got out in one club on weekends I was in another , when  they have been to festivals I was to shopping , libraries and coffee time... Everything was different so I didn't want to hang so much around and I even didn't care to get to know someone.

But I remembered that evening when we went out for a walk and of course I had to met some friends of my friend fiends.In those few people that I met that evening,I saw a smile full of sparkles. That was impressive, that smile...that look, omg hard to forget. And a thought passed my mind..''.He is damn cute!'' But as I told you I wasn't in their "style" .I dressed different ,my hair was different , I was very opposite to my friend and so the same of her gang of friends. So everything between that amazing smile and me stays just to -hi and -bye kind of conversation. He will never like me I am fashion addict and they are punk's something I even  don't understand the style. So its complicated.

After few weeks and months of seeing each other just in a pass walk and around for hi and goodbye...I went out with them. All the time I was thinking he is into her , and that they have something and so on, so I don't like to get into a relation even if its only friend zoned. After hours of begging me to go out with them I was finally agreed to please her and move my ass wherever they wanted. "Oh so boring!'' I took my only pair of converse so I can be a part of the gang somehow, because high hells are not allowed...''I hate this style , yep I do!'' We arrived.'' Welcome bad night out...''

So after few drinks and walking around like crazy dogs on the street we finally got in a club, full of smoke and kids...(because under twenties I call them kids), but the music was nice..So this guy with perfect smile got a friend for me ,so he and my girl can do they're gang stuffs and so I can hang out with someone...''What the hell? Am I looking like I cant find a hanger? Are you drum? ''And then... oh! that moment my night was sooooooo bad, that I thought It will be the worst party weekend in my life. So they hit the road for another party and I staid with the ''glue guy'' , hanging around me like I was 7 and need a babysitter." Oh hell no! Let me dance don't stick like a sticker to me...Its not slow dance you moron its "jump all around""...I wanted to tell him go away pleaaaaaseeeee! but I am too nice to hurt that lost look around , he was like a puppy lost in the woods. So I kind of started to talk and make some moves but it just didn't work, ''I cant '! i just really can't"...Its too much , I hate this come meet my friend of friend , blind dates, bad dates, everything shit dates..How do people think they know what I need , when even I don't know what I need or want. Meanwhile they got some base in their minds and came back. "Thank God!" because I am out of here. But that moment the sparkling smile put his hands over my hips and he pulled me near his and started to dance, on my kind of music..."Damn !!!!! He is dancing , he is moving his hips next to mine, and he can dance on this music, he likes r&b, oh he do...And he is dancing oh sooo good.'' and huh I said I would go, but he pushed me back and didn't let me , not that I wanted but omg...He took me up and down and move it all around with those sexy moves...and than there it was that moment of impact, face to face , nothing else to see nothing else to hear. Nothing just two of us. Nothing matters, the differences, the music taste, clothes, hair, converse,martins or high hells...Bang!!!! his tongue is in my mouth "OMG! pull it out please pull it out! I cant !I want ! where is you're girlfriend! I cant I have someone that I am seeing! Damn you sweet smile!....Oh good he kisses so damn goood"""

-OK! Stop...I cant , you are with my friend and I don't want this, we are different

-Relax, I am not we are just...friends.

-Yep I know ...but still I cant I am not the way you think I am.

-Its just a kiss...

"Maybe for you its just a kiss, for me, that moment i saw my feature!"

So that was almost all of we have had together...a kiss. A damn good one!

I swear I saw my future in his eyes after I drew back, and I was thinking I will die and then I remembered its past you see when you die, so whats with the future? anyway I don't believe in this kind of shit, like Friday 13, black cat, pass under a ladder, curses....neh!

So after that kiss we texted sometimes , just to see whats up in each others life, he started to like and comment on some of my photos and I secretly waited for those days...but I never wanted to believe that he meant something , that I was on a way to fall for him. Neh ,not my style , Its nothing...its just a smile, a look , a kiss...It was half a year ago...After a while he wanted to see me,and I havent told my friend about this, I was feeling guilty for something and I don't know what...I told her from time to time that he writes me and he is boring, but he wasn't boring....he was fun and smart and I enjoyed to text with him or talk and hide from rest of the world. So many times he wanted to go out, to meet me for a walk, even to wait for me on a airport...And I didn't wanted to. The timing wasn't right, everything was wrong, I couldn't...I just didn't wanted. I ran all the time when he asked for a closely look...And back to my Friday. It had been more than a month how we didn't texted, I was off and I didn't told him I came back. Even that I had promised I will and he will come to meet me at airport. So today this Friday I texted him...And we agreed to see each other. So i went to work and come back home.I spent the rest of the day getting ready to meet my perfect guy with sparkling sexy smile..."Oh Ybell, do you hear yourself, it has been 5 hours and you are not ready , you'll miss your train young lady''. 

"I got this, I have to , whats wrong with me?Its just a guy...And he is not going to like me anyway , I am not his type...omg I even don't know nothing to talk about...what about music he listen?nope, nothing...compliments?oh on what? jokes work with jokes'' ready to go...all dressed up,make up,purse,hair,smile,all check...go! I ran but the train went before of my eyes...'''Damn, this is not good ,all day I was so active and all went perfect,whats wrong? I am nervous? haha nope that's not good.'' After running and waiting for one more hour for the train I got somehow in front of his home, he waited for me to lead me upstairs in his apartment.

-Hi 

-Hi, all good? you look gorgeous!

"for sure, he doesn't like it'' -Well, thank you, youre not bad yourself, long time non seen.

-yeah, how are you ?

-Good, you? 

as we walked the stairs and have this small talk I felt my heart bumping like crazy. ''I am shy now?''

So we talk and talk all kind of staffs I even don't know where from came all those  because we are so different, not to much in common ...till now...

-Do you want a glass of vine?

-Why? you cant hit on me if you don't get me drunk?

we laugh and talk and the night started very pleasant.and he showed me his work and some old photos, things he had around in his mac. And then there was this look and his lips so close to mine I felt his breathing, and my heart. And there it was that amazing kiss, again and again , but now my mind was empty, world was empty,everything was vanished...just two of us and this amazing feeling that owervelmed my body. his arms touched my hair and I was afraid he will stop...but he didn't..he touched my neck and chest ,and he went down to my legs , pushed me over in his arms got me up and took me to his bedroom...he puts me down slowly and kisses my neck and whispered in my ears

-Do you want me to stop?

-No , just don't stop... 

I cant think...this moments are empty all I know is only the feeling...that's all I feel so intense every touch, every kiss ,every beat of our hearts. He pushed me over a wall and his hands started to undress me slowly...all my body was trembling between his legs my knees, his lips on my neck his hands on my hips and next that I know we were naked. The sheets felt from  bed, we even didn't noticed, music was playing in the back so slow like it was following our movement, the light was so weak that I could see only shadows and I felt our skin touching each other, so sweaty ...That night was something that I have never expected. I felt asleep in his arms, naked ( I never slept naked) and I felt his touches and kisses all over my body, all  night long.

In the morning...I was lucky I didn't work that Saturday so I could sleepover a bit longer, he woke me up with a cup of perfect black coffee and a breakfast. ''not bad for a guy like you'' sometimes its not important  how big the difference are between you too because that's what brought us together. High hells and Dr.martins.

To be continued...

xoxo Ybell