Protective lies

A person will change if he wants to change... You can not make someone to change because you want that, something like that is impossible. You can try , of course you can try and believe in yourself but he/she will change only and only if they want that changing...Welcome in a relationship bitches!
The truth is after few relationship you think "oh dear I am smart now ,I am a fucking expert ,I can make him to do whatever I want" , and yes of course you have a little extra experience but In this world my dear you can not change him without his willing. All you have to do is to play smart. Play by his rules but do not forget your bound.The ugly truth is that all of them will make you suffer , less or more, harder or softer, but its in they're nature. You only have to decide who is worth suffering for.And when you make that decision its on you all that you accept from him.
Back to cheating liars. Yep, they will cheat they are guys, and all of you that think that he is the prince of never cheating story , well he is not. But he is a damn good liar because you didn't find out and it doesn't hurt you. We are all the same. they are all the same, the thing is who is worth of your love and affection,respect, friendship,heart and life.

You know they always try to be sweet not to hurt you , play Innocent guys , pure little souls...and guess what ,neither one of us are better...remember how many times you try that silly puppy face and tears. So don't blame them. I am not on they're side believe me I would set them on fire but lets be honest if we were angels.
Let them lie..As long as it doesn't affect your story , your love and respect, your  life and heart..As long as you wake up in his arms, and he makes that perfect coffee in the morning, as long as his heart is in your hands, you can brake it at any time, but don't do that because he gave you that one thing that is the most important most precious because he loves you and respect you and he did it because he knows you are his present his future and his everything. I know sometimes there are this little lies and secrets that you know about and it hurts , but when you think about it think twice , does it really makes you feel like shit, no respected not loved, did he broke you? Than set that motherfucker on fire! Until that is an innocent thing that he try's to protect you from ( or at least he thinks so, even I know how badly you would like to hear that lie) let him protect you. Like you do it for him. Protect each other because life is full of unexpected .Some secret are just good to stay secret, some lies are protective lies. Remember he gave you something extraordinary that you can brake at any point , but he believed in you that you will protect it like he does with yours. Hearts, Life , Love and a bit of lies.

xoxo Ybell

Behind the smile

There is a story behind every smile...I have never meet a person who smiles so often and doesn't have a story behind it. My story is my life.
It is not easy , like most of our live there are ups and downs, and we try to get at the end with glory. The sad part is there is easy way that most of you are choosing and the hard way that I always chose. When something is to easy to get , there I had learn something is wrong. When you take the hard path to climb , damn there are a lot of steps and a lot of darkness...but at the end there is that hand waiting for you to pull you up to the greatest achievement.
When you meet me , not see me, meet me, all you see is a smile and sparkle in eyes and funny stories and a lot of cupcakes and bubbles, What you don't know is what made me this way. Maybe that's a story I will never tell or maybe one day there will be a book about it.
Have you ever asked yourself why are you on this planet? why its you born there at those parents in that country. I did.. I still do that almost every night. Because the night gives me time to think when my mind need to rest it starts to work. And there are thousand and million of question but no answer. Nobody know what and why. You and only you have to decide how to make you're own life worth living. Now I know we are not all rich and not all of us are born millionaires and maybe you think for them it is easier, but believe me , its not. Not all you can buy with money. Some of us are lucky bastards and some just poor lovers.
I tend to think that all my life I had made bad decisions, took the wrong path even it was harder, maybe I should took the easy one... but then...where is all the fun? what would I tell about to my children's when there is not a good story its a simple one. My achievement's are not at the point I wanted to be in life and it made me so many times to get in a hard depression. Can you imagine that if you didn't took this path you're life would be different and I can not help myself but asking how would it be otherwise?
I am in my late twenties and I ask myself what did I do with my life? And then I think about others who didn't make not even a half of what i did....And then I remember of those who have everything at my age. Its hard and complicated and my path is full of ups and downs,and it hurts and its a lot of tears...But at the end of the day I am strong, survive and smiling.
I know I can , I don't need to know my purpose here, I will make it myself. My life is my life and I will live it the way I decide to. I am scared, but at the end of this journey I will smile with all my heart because I did it. No matter how hard it is I will fight for what I want and I will get it.
I believe in better tomorrow and I believe in magic.

xoxo Ybell

We, what are we?

-Well good morning handsome, and thank you for this perfect coffee... I really have to go now. Maybe I didn't have to go, but I couldn't just stay there.
- You're welcome. Has someone told you that you look gorgeous in the morning? "liar, I am mess in the morning and especially this morning.''
-Thanks, I am gonna take a shower and get going.
-I am gonna come with you, I have also some things to do in the city so we are going in the same direction , if its not a problem of course.
-Yeah sure, it's not a problem at all. '' Are you kidding me , come and join me in the shower too...'' And than he stopped my thinking by grabbing my ass with his hands and pushing me trough the room to the door of  the bathroom ,he took me in his arms and get in the shower with me. "Damn, he is good at readying my mind''

After putting me down, he started to kiss my neck wile adjusting the water...and the water was so hot...almost like his touch. After we were wet he took the shampoo and washed my whole body . And my heart beats were so strong ... he felt it when he grabbed my teats, the water was leaking down the body but I felt only his hands, his bites on my neck... he turned me around slap my left butt and leaned me over and approach. "Damn , damn ,damn boy...where have you been all this time?'' I think that month he paid the water bill very expensive. I don't even have to tell you , use you're imagination. We lost few trains , but it was all worth it.
All the road to destination where I take another train and he is going to his "'things'' is like maybe half an hour. We smiled all the time and look in each others eyes. I always wonder what does he see in mine? I saw in his all my happiness, from the beginning from the very first kiss I see there my future..every time. Those eyes are so dark but full of light, it takes that something to see in depth...I can stare for hours and never get bored, all the time there is a different story, beautiful,magical...
"Next stop main station, exit on the left" That voice broke our silent love story.
-Here we are
-Yes I am going to the university, thank you for an amazing night and day of course.
"'yeah sure you are '' - Sure, I had a great time too...so see ya,maybe...''what now?how should I react,what should I say....I hate this situations''
I wanted to turn around and wait for my next train, that moment he grab my hand turned me to him and kissed me , yep that perfect movie kiss...''woooohoooooooooo, yeah I love that kiss, those lips..ooooh!'' 
smiles, another few kisses and bye, everyone on his duty.
I arrived home, I was so tired like I had bathed all day in the fields. I watched some shows on TV and felt asleep.
Next what I know he didn't wrote , didn't call..."'Is he punishing me now because I let him to wait for me for a year? omg such a child..I didn't mean to , I just wasn't ready to date..ok I don't have to explain myself to no one. wait. should I call him, no no , too obvious, what is obvious? I like him.OMG!!!! I really like him.....I love him?no Its too early...am I? OMG!!!!! I am gonna tell nobody nothing.''
I found out I have to go for few weeks with my work in another city...''few weeks,damn it, but after we can chose a week of..cool...and what should I do ?'' After all promises I made to myself I called my bestye.
-Hi Serena, the connection is week but I have to tell you something.
-Omg hi , are you alive? all ok? you didn't wrote , I know you have not time but still just write a word maybe so I can stay calm that you are ok and you know my life same old same old, this village girls are all over gossip and shit, I don't like here but yeah you know no friends only neighbors...boring. oh yeah what is new tell me ,you always have excited stories. I bet its a guy.
-Yeah it is.mmm...
-Let me guess...
-Nope no time to guess,I need to tel you now. You remember I told you about this cute guy last summer ?..
-Yes of course, omg! no! you are with him?
-The problem is I don't know what we are. I hate this kind of things, do you remember when we were younger,and when a guy hold  you're hand, you already were in relationship and like each other, that was normal and cute. Nowadays  you are fucking each other and you don't know what that is? are you together or one night stand or whatever... I would like him to tell me..but he didn't call, wrote nothing.

-Hey , cheer up its a guy he will not call first. Look sweetie you are the mature one here, make the step and tell him what you want.
-I cant I am scared.
-Of what? what do you have to lose?
''My future, in his eyes'' sounds crazy I know. - Yeah you're right, I will, ok thanks S , talk to you later. Love you piece of pie.
-Sure sweetie, let me know how its going, be optimistic like always. Love you piece of cake.
Ok so Ill wait until tomorrow. I packed up and got ready for tomorrow, of course he was all day on my mind.What to do ? why he doesn't he call? OK, he didn't tell me he will call, he didn't say he won't , he didn't say anything.I didn't ask. How stupid. I don't even understand why am I acting like this...Another day, all will be better in the morning.
Oh its afternoon, He is still in my head if you are asking. I didn't call of course what would I say?And than I send him an sms, just random, something like whats up you misery? yep he called me first time witch...Ok I know..childish but I really didn't know what and how. Time passes by..nothing.
Evening...Late in evening hours , my phone on the bed I came out of a shower,the phone rings...''OMG OMG OMG its him....I cant answer , let a little bit to ring and than calm down...."
-Hi there!
-Well hello you little witch . ( I told you..) I was busy , you know uny and all that stuffs...
-Yep no problem, I send you sms just to see if all is ok... (such a bad bad liar)
-Oh that was you of course you sexy little witch...Yeah like I told you , dutyes. But all is fine sure. (told you he do this)
-Yeah me , ok than all ok... I didn't want to bother so...
-No you don't at all, I was just busy .
... ... ...
We talk for like hours ,like best friends, like we were together for years,like we knew each other for a life time..... But like always after midnight we need to have our beauty sleep. So good night and I still didn't knew what are we.We didn't define our relationship, but I didn't even mid because all was going perfectly fine. But since then we talked every day on sms , every night on phone... That voice, I can listen to for hours, for all my life.
After a week I decided to make him an offer that he cant refuse. lol. I called him that evening:
-Hi handsome.
-Hi gorgeous.How was you're day?
-Oh same old same old,work, work,work, but I have an offer for you.
-Hit it sweetie,I love to make deals with you
-The pleasure is always mine babe. So how I say here it is. I know it has been not so long and that we are a lil' bit far from each other but I don't have time to waste on playing around so I don't want to stay with you for few years and than say ''öh we don't fit togheter''...
-And what did you're smart little had came up with?
-Let me finish, I want to travel to see Europe and my next station is Amsterdam, what do you think, you gonna join me?
-Really are you kidding me? I wanted two times but always something came up.
-Me the same, my friend told me she will and we didn't go ,so I decided I want to go this year anyway and I would like you to come with me, So we can see if we work out like a couple and if this is going somewhere, if not its better to know sooner than later.
-Sure , let me arrange flights..
-I will do the accommodation..
-Perfect
-Perfect.
-So I will check my schedule and let you know when its good for me
-Sure, Ill do the same, somewhere like next month?
-Perfect, I am so happy you came up with it.
-Me too, I was a little bit sceptic, to ask you so soon, but than why not?
-Dear, its a good idea,I am glad you asked me.
-I'm glad you accepted.
-Looking forward to the trip,now I have to go to sleep, you are tired too, sweet dreams and talk to you tomorrow
-Sure thank you, you the same...kisses.

Every day we talked , we made plans ( actually I don't like to make plans because I believe they are not gonna come out like I planed, but this time I made exception). My work made me to travel a lot, so we didn't have chance to be all the time togheter and this was a perfect opportunity to see if we fit together when we live in a same room. In a week you can get to know habits and tabiets about person and decide if its good to continue or not.
The days were passing away,plans came out good, we even had tickets and our place booked up.
''Im a fucking bad ass''
The date was so near, I bought some cute clothes because I knew he likes Dr. martins so I bought for me one pair of course girly motives with pink and flowers but damn they looked sexy on me . I packed my bag and  go over to his place because it was easier to travel from the same spot.
-Hi babe.
-Oh you waited for me in the station you are so cute.
-Always dear, let me help you with you're bag.
-Well thank you , I think you are the last gentleman on Earth.
- I will pack all things in one bag , together,its better to treavel with one bag.
''Did he say our things will travel together, like all together in one bag , like so mine and his like in a couple, family trip...''
ok ok act normal... -yeah  sure handsome, but I have a lot of things, I'm a girl
- no problem, ill make them,belive me I know to pack perfect. ( I have to addmit I didn't belive he knew to pack, but he is damn good at it)
''Oh dear God he is packing, our bag... I love you , yes i think I love you....''
.....
-Are you hungry?
-Did you cook?
-Of course , I made some sauce with pastas, my way.
''Oh my God , please tell me he is real and I am not in a freque fairy tale dream right now!''
-Mmmmm....sure I am. we can eat, thank you.
''I want to marry you''
.....

His hand is in my hair, my head is on his chest, my left leg is over his right...he is smiling I looked up...He kissed my forehead, I smiled back...Clock is ringing, we don't mind...
-Get up I'll make coffee
-Brink those cookies too and shake that ass for me
-shut up...

We are ready, bags are ready , we are full of joy and happiness. I would tell you ''Wish us a luck'' but we don't need it, we already have luck the moment we meet.
Amsterdam here we come! Make this love story to start right...
To be continued....



xoxo Ybell

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The beggining

I woke up that day and I was in a good mood for everything, for work ,for hanging out and all activities of that day , because it was Friday.But I haven't even dream about what would that day bring to me at the end.

 Few days before , I started to text with an old friend that I met one year ago in the summer. I remember I was thinking about that situation when friends of friends take you to met some guys to hang around, to be friends or maybe something more , but for me that was something less. I have never liked this kind of meetings. They were like a bad blind dates. So I wasn't hanging out so often with them. We were peaty different ,with other kind of taste in almost everything. So when they got out in one club on weekends I was in another , when  they have been to festivals I was to shopping , libraries and coffee time... Everything was different so I didn't want to hang so much around and I even didn't care to get to know someone.

But I remembered that evening when we went out for a walk and of course I had to met some friends of my friend fiends.In those few people that I met that evening,I saw a smile full of sparkles. That was impressive, that smile...that look, omg hard to forget. And a thought passed my mind..''.He is damn cute!'' But as I told you I wasn't in their "style" .I dressed different ,my hair was different , I was very opposite to my friend and so the same of her gang of friends. So everything between that amazing smile and me stays just to -hi and -bye kind of conversation. He will never like me I am fashion addict and they are punk's something I even  don't understand the style. So its complicated.

After few weeks and months of seeing each other just in a pass walk and around for hi and goodbye...I went out with them. All the time I was thinking he is into her , and that they have something and so on, so I don't like to get into a relation even if its only friend zoned. After hours of begging me to go out with them I was finally agreed to please her and move my ass wherever they wanted. "Oh so boring!'' I took my only pair of converse so I can be a part of the gang somehow, because high hells are not allowed...''I hate this style , yep I do!'' We arrived.'' Welcome bad night out...''

So after few drinks and walking around like crazy dogs on the street we finally got in a club, full of smoke and kids...(because under twenties I call them kids), but the music was nice..So this guy with perfect smile got a friend for me ,so he and my girl can do they're gang stuffs and so I can hang out with someone...''What the hell? Am I looking like I cant find a hanger? Are you drum? ''And then... oh! that moment my night was sooooooo bad, that I thought It will be the worst party weekend in my life. So they hit the road for another party and I staid with the ''glue guy'' , hanging around me like I was 7 and need a babysitter." Oh hell no! Let me dance don't stick like a sticker to me...Its not slow dance you moron its "jump all around""...I wanted to tell him go away pleaaaaaseeeee! but I am too nice to hurt that lost look around , he was like a puppy lost in the woods. So I kind of started to talk and make some moves but it just didn't work, ''I cant '! i just really can't"...Its too much , I hate this come meet my friend of friend , blind dates, bad dates, everything shit dates..How do people think they know what I need , when even I don't know what I need or want. Meanwhile they got some base in their minds and came back. "Thank God!" because I am out of here. But that moment the sparkling smile put his hands over my hips and he pulled me near his and started to dance, on my kind of music..."Damn !!!!! He is dancing , he is moving his hips next to mine, and he can dance on this music, he likes r&b, oh he do...And he is dancing oh sooo good.'' and huh I said I would go, but he pushed me back and didn't let me , not that I wanted but omg...He took me up and down and move it all around with those sexy moves...and than there it was that moment of impact, face to face , nothing else to see nothing else to hear. Nothing just two of us. Nothing matters, the differences, the music taste, clothes, hair, converse,martins or high hells...Bang!!!! his tongue is in my mouth "OMG! pull it out please pull it out! I cant !I want ! where is you're girlfriend! I cant I have someone that I am seeing! Damn you sweet smile!....Oh good he kisses so damn goood"""

-OK! Stop...I cant , you are with my friend and I don't want this, we are different

-Relax, I am not we are just...friends.

-Yep I know ...but still I cant I am not the way you think I am.

-Its just a kiss...

"Maybe for you its just a kiss, for me, that moment i saw my feature!"

So that was almost all of we have had together...a kiss. A damn good one!

I swear I saw my future in his eyes after I drew back, and I was thinking I will die and then I remembered its past you see when you die, so whats with the future? anyway I don't believe in this kind of shit, like Friday 13, black cat, pass under a ladder, curses....neh!

So after that kiss we texted sometimes , just to see whats up in each others life, he started to like and comment on some of my photos and I secretly waited for those days...but I never wanted to believe that he meant something , that I was on a way to fall for him. Neh ,not my style , Its nothing...its just a smile, a look , a kiss...It was half a year ago...After a while he wanted to see me,and I havent told my friend about this, I was feeling guilty for something and I don't know what...I told her from time to time that he writes me and he is boring, but he wasn't boring....he was fun and smart and I enjoyed to text with him or talk and hide from rest of the world. So many times he wanted to go out, to meet me for a walk, even to wait for me on a airport...And I didn't wanted to. The timing wasn't right, everything was wrong, I couldn't...I just didn't wanted. I ran all the time when he asked for a closely look...And back to my Friday. It had been more than a month how we didn't texted, I was off and I didn't told him I came back. Even that I had promised I will and he will come to meet me at airport. So today this Friday I texted him...And we agreed to see each other. So i went to work and come back home.I spent the rest of the day getting ready to meet my perfect guy with sparkling sexy smile..."Oh Ybell, do you hear yourself, it has been 5 hours and you are not ready , you'll miss your train young lady''. 

"I got this, I have to , whats wrong with me?Its just a guy...And he is not going to like me anyway , I am not his type...omg I even don't know nothing to talk about...what about music he listen?nope, nothing...compliments?oh on what? jokes work with jokes'' ready to go...all dressed up,make up,purse,hair,smile,all check...go! I ran but the train went before of my eyes...'''Damn, this is not good ,all day I was so active and all went perfect,whats wrong? I am nervous? haha nope that's not good.'' After running and waiting for one more hour for the train I got somehow in front of his home, he waited for me to lead me upstairs in his apartment.

-Hi 

-Hi, all good? you look gorgeous!

"for sure, he doesn't like it'' -Well, thank you, youre not bad yourself, long time non seen.

-yeah, how are you ?

-Good, you? 

as we walked the stairs and have this small talk I felt my heart bumping like crazy. ''I am shy now?''

So we talk and talk all kind of staffs I even don't know where from came all those  because we are so different, not to much in common ...till now...

-Do you want a glass of vine?

-Why? you cant hit on me if you don't get me drunk?

we laugh and talk and the night started very pleasant.and he showed me his work and some old photos, things he had around in his mac. And then there was this look and his lips so close to mine I felt his breathing, and my heart. And there it was that amazing kiss, again and again , but now my mind was empty, world was empty,everything was vanished...just two of us and this amazing feeling that owervelmed my body. his arms touched my hair and I was afraid he will stop...but he didn't..he touched my neck and chest ,and he went down to my legs , pushed me over in his arms got me up and took me to his bedroom...he puts me down slowly and kisses my neck and whispered in my ears

-Do you want me to stop?

-No , just don't stop... 

I cant think...this moments are empty all I know is only the feeling...that's all I feel so intense every touch, every kiss ,every beat of our hearts. He pushed me over a wall and his hands started to undress me slowly...all my body was trembling between his legs my knees, his lips on my neck his hands on my hips and next that I know we were naked. The sheets felt from  bed, we even didn't noticed, music was playing in the back so slow like it was following our movement, the light was so weak that I could see only shadows and I felt our skin touching each other, so sweaty ...That night was something that I have never expected. I felt asleep in his arms, naked ( I never slept naked) and I felt his touches and kisses all over my body, all  night long.

In the morning...I was lucky I didn't work that Saturday so I could sleepover a bit longer, he woke me up with a cup of perfect black coffee and a breakfast. ''not bad for a guy like you'' sometimes its not important  how big the difference are between you too because that's what brought us together. High hells and Dr.martins.

To be continued...

xoxo Ybell

Are you jealous?

Why are we so jealous?

Because we have something to lose...

I was thinking a lot lately about this feeling. It was kind of strange to me. Maybe I was jealous before, but not so much or maybe I wasn't really jealous I just pretended to be because I was thinking it was normal when you love someone, when you don't have that certain something, when there are skinnier girls...but i lied to myself, I wasn't really I just pretended and that's not because I didn't love that guy ,but  maybe it was "whatever" for me if  I lose him, I will cry a month than get over him and met someone else. Than whenever I saw something I wanted, I was thinking I can buy it one day when I make my money ( I still think so about things that I wish for, I will work my ass of if I want that car or house or work or clothes or furniture...) and if someone is skinnier than me , I must be honest I don't like anorexia. So I always find a way not to be jealous... 

But seems like nowadays I started to be best friend with this feeling. And to be honest I don't like it at all...So I started to do some research why am I jealous? Of what can I be jealous , because I always find a way to make it trough this feeling.for example  like yesterday , I saw this amazing shoes and I really really wanted them, and one girl before me bought a pair and I was thinking ''oh I am so jealous she bought those and I have no money for this once'', then I remembered how I have a lot of pairs home but I really really want those, and then I told myself I will buy them when I make those money. And the feeling went away. So I can manage this felling and I am not jealous anymore, I hate the feeling , I don't need it. And then it hit me , why I feel jealousy...Because I care and I am scared not to lose my S.O.

So I will tell you how this feeling started to live inside my body even when I was so sure it will never happen to me. I started to care and love and be afraid. That's when jealousy made place inside me when I start to be afraid of losing him. I don't care about those shoes i will have them one day, I don't care if I got fatter than Victoria's Secret models I can go to gym , eat less, there are a lot of thing to do to prevent being jealous, but when it comes to you're S.O you get jealous because you know there isn't r someone else to replace him/ her. Ok there is , the World is full of people , but when you know there isn't the same one... 

So I am in love now . And I know  he is jealous too, sometimes too much , but I cant complain , I kind of like it and sometimes I like to tizz him just to feel that pleasure when he feels in danger that something is lurking around me. I don't feel guilty , because he does the same. But  I still  hate this feeling of  jealousy, making place in my mind and body without permission. Its fine, we will survive, when there is this little dose of jealousy in relationships, but you got to control it not to grow in a obsession, that is illness.

And than I look in the mirror and tell to myself : ''He picked you against all, he do unique things for you and with you , he tells you every day how much he loves you, he tells you every day how beautiful you are, he tells you how much you mean to him, how much he cares, how he is also afraid not to lose you...Stop worrying for once" 

And I am...I am really grateful that I have this special ,unique S.O.and I do love him, but also I will worry all my life because I care. As for jealousy, welcome you little bastard I think we will hang out for a wile so make yourself comfortable ...

xoxo Ybell

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A piece of advice

What about long distance relationship, do you think those can work out?

If you asked me ten years ago I would definitively say no! Because Like a teen you need to spend time and cuddle and kiss and text and talk and hold hands and kind of he has to babysit you...but how time comes by , I think relationship works on distance and why I think so , its because distance is not the one thing that brings you apart, its what brings you closer , sometimes couples do need some time for themselves without babysitting. And I am not talking about six months free time that's absurd but also there are couples who take relationship on the next level and they have to leave for few months maybe a year because of work , or they are more apart than together in the relationship, and again I am telling you the distance is not the problem , what ends relationships on a distance is faith. When one of you get jealous and I am not talking about that little cute kind of jealousy , that is always welcomed, I am talking about that possessive sick kind, and when one of you start to doubt about the truth then there is a problem and that relationship will never work out. And its the same for those who are breathing the same kitchen , toilet or room air everyday... When there is a problem , there is a problem and that for sure isn't the distance.
I have always believed that if something is meant to be,it will always find his way. And i still believe it. So whats the matter if you are 2 ft from each other or 2  thousand miles, the distance will not influence you to brake up or separate, feelings will. If you're love , faith and respect is strong enough than my dears you two are two lucky bastards that will live happily ever after , and if not than that's it , it has never been the one, just a passenger to teach you a lesson in you're  life so far.
I want to tell you a story ... Once when I was thinking I was in love and oh my dear God I wanted to know of course like all teen girls if I will marry him or if he is the one and this fairy tale shits, I asked my mom how she knew my dad was the one. An she told me also a happily ever after fairy tale that of course sounds so happy and fluffy and full of bubbles and cake.But she gave me a very nice advice how should I know if I want to live with this guy for the rest of my life. So I will tell you the same. Take a paper and a pen and write his pro and cons. Witch one do you have more? Now you will know...Believe me it is so. At first I was looking sceptic and every time i had a boyfriend I made this list and there always were at least one more cons than pro. But I was thinking maybe he will change ( people never change, at least not for someone, they change if they want for who they want...extremely rare) , and than I told myself oh damn I am not perfect so why I expect him to be perfect...I was looking for excuses , but the truth is we aren't perfect but there somewhere is that perfect guy for us and we are perfect for him, and that's the match made in heaven. You just need to be truth to yourself,believe you're heart and mind of course and make that list, if there is just one contra more than pro, I am so sorry he is not the one, keep searching.

We often don't want to listen what mom tell us for advice because we think we know a lot and she is just old and we don't want things to be the way she told us, but the truth is she was there and she is wiser and she is the woman who want the best for her little girl, think twice before you do something. My mom is my best friend I can tell her everything , almost everything. And this advice she gave me is priceless because now I did find my guy , and he my dears maybe has one or two cons over a hundred of pros. Hope you're list will turn perfect, just have faith.

Xoxo Ybell



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