Its not me , its you..

What if it is really you?
How many time we say yeah its not you , its me...just to not hurt that other person. Why? Do they care not to hurt us? Well if they protect you all this time than its sertenly good to say its not you its me, but otherwise just go with its totally you.I don't get how we always get boned to that guys that are bad for us? or girls... its equal from both part there are all of us out there bad just bad for other one.

It just came to my mind today why every time I have to be the one to change? Why? didn't you just met me like I am, why you want to change me? to hurt me? to not respect my priorities if I respect yours? And If I say to him , please change something its irrelevant what ever it is I ask for he just has always the same excuse " I'm not used to such a commitment" or " I'm not changing for anyone" .
Well first of all when you are already in this relationship that means commitment , understanding, respect and most of all compromises. Where am I doing wrong? I ask and I want to talk and find a compromises to be good for both but I just feel  like I'm fighting alone. Ok maybe sometime I'm just overreacting... And than the second thing... I'm not anyone, I'm the one! And if there is something that I know is that I'm wort it , that you change for me. because I'm not gonna be the only grown up and I will not be the only one to change and do something ...
Where there in any relationship there has to be two ways working like one. If there is not compromises , understanding, respect, open talk, love and all that ...it will never work. As for me , I know what I want... If the other half is not willing to make an effort , well he isn't the one. As for you out there , find that one who will do anything for you ( and I'm not exaggerating ) just anything... that's the one and you deserve the best! Remember its not you....
xo xo
Ybell

Fight for your dreams

When you really want something you will have it, make it happen no mater what. Life is to short to wait always wait for something or someone. I decided to take this vacation even i don't know how will I manage to survive without money but I really think I can and that not all is about money . So a lot of you out there would say well you know I don't have money for this for that... That's not true there is always and believe me its so true...there is always a way to make what you want. So start today and make your dreams come true. Never lose hope!

Today a friend of mine send  me a photo that her dream came true. And right now I am very very happy for her. It doesn't mater that it passed like more than five years to make it happen, she did it! and I am very proud of her. That made me think ...I have always said that when you wish for something you should be careful because you never know when there is a magic in the stars and it can just happen. So I was always thinking what did I do wrong in life ( not that I have been a saint , we all are sinners...) but really having some though time here for few years now. And then it hit me , life is just getting me ready for future. To be strong and not to get out of the right path.
So, as I told you . Its never easy but if you wish for it strong enough it will come true and you cant just sit under the sky and wait for it to fall, of course you have to do something for it , fight for what you want , wish and deserve, go chase your dreams and make them come true don't just sit and watch how they pass you.
Sometime when I look back ( and this is not too gut cuz past is past) I see myself how accomplished I was. I had a work and family and university going on step by step from my twenty something and I think - then why people always wait for something and never have that perfect life. And after two years of perfection I almost hit the bottom. Yeah it was hard, hard enough that depression anxiety and panic had become my bff's for a wile. I always looked back how happy I was and how I had it all... And then one morning I woke up took my baggage and start from zero, without nothing , just nothing.I wont lie to you it was hard and it still is.. Sometimes my old bffs come over for visit but I know now how to handle them. I just had to wake up. Nothing was perfect back then I just lived a dream my way but I never saw outside the box. Now after this whole time I am still vulnerable , sensitive and a bit of a mess but that's me and I will fight and I will chase my dreams step by step ... And one day Ill have it all.
Life did gave me a hard mission , but there are other people out there struggling more than me. And they have to look up and fight for better tomorrow , for their dreams, for them. Nobody will be there to give you a hand , you need to believe in yourself and be strong for you in the first place.
Now, I'm still on my way to my dreams but they are there I know. I started a little project that I love to work, step by step and I am thankful for the first step. In few days I'll be it the arms of my love, that God put him on my life path to show me that there is still love on this Planet and that not all guys are the same. And my dream start to take life ...step by step...
I wish you all to bring your dreams to life and make them come true for your happiness. Fight for them and always be thankful for what you have, because there are others that don't have what you have. Be thankful, be happy , be strong...
xo xo

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Ybell

two in one

"-Let me think...so you were dating both of them?

- Yeah..First I was with Steve and after , well we broke up a year or two ago and then I get in touch with his brother and well I was with him. But I didn't sleep with neither of them.

-Than I don't get it...You were with two brothers , you didn't slept with none of them, just kissing and walking around?

-Yeah. So literally I wasn't with them.

-And then for what? Do they kiss too good? how did you miss their dad?

- Come on, you are just rude now.. Your my best friend,,,

-I'm just joking , I don't judge remember...But I don't get you. I just cant imagine that , for me its disgusting but well you wanted to see witch ones DNK fits better with your saliva . hahahha

-Well yeah , I wont tell you nothing anymore,

-Well come on Im joking. And I always was like how guys can be with two sisters? Are those sisters stupid or what? and now my bestie was with two brothers,,,well that's new,,,

-Yeah sweetie, you should try ,

-Nope hun I just cant its too much for me. "

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So what is the real story behind being with two siblings, I thin if I had a sister well I wouldn't hate her being with my ex but come on, that's just what... I don't get it, I get guys , they wanna get both have fun and whatever because they are guys and they do this things , but girls... And buying a car and not testing it.. Well for what then?

Than ...a flesh came back  from the past. My exes brother came at some party after few years that we broke up, we all still were friends. Ok so this bro came to me like "who's gonna take you home dear". well I came with some friends so I was showing him the crew and we had a lil chat and jokes and bla bla old times of course about his bro and so on... the night get to an end and here we are back at the same question :

"Hi , so are you going home?

- well yeah I just have to pick up my jacket . So everybody left somehow I was alone. mmm, but that was fine I was just few blocks from my place.

-Let me take you home its dark and you are alone anything can happen,

-Yeah right, I'm fine.

-Well I go in the same direction.

-Ok, sure. "Well here I was thinking he is just polite and he is my exes bro after all...and we were like best buddies back in  time..So we walked and talked and laugh and so on...when we reach the porch I gave him a hug and wanted to get my keys , but he reached my hand and puled me like so near his face that I could see his mustache started to grow ...OMG!

"-mmmm ok, wait what is this about. I just got myself out of the" danger zone"

-I just sorry I was thinking...I just ...wanted to kiss you.

-Damn! No you were not thinking!!!!Are you stupid? Ok I know you had drinkd like too much bu that's never an excuse and Hell NO , I'm not gonna kiss you like ever!

-I'm so sorry."

He turned around and literally run. So Why did I felt like shit? I was yelling that's why, but what was he thinking? I just...I cant understand. Because I was with his brother and I cant never look at him the same way again, because we used to be buddies and that one stupid attempt change all that I was thinking about our "friendship" . And from that night our eyes never met again. Every time " hello, how are you?" he says , facing the ground. 

I think he still feels like shit. 

What about me? I feel fine and proud that not all brothers can have bros exes . That's why I also know if I had a sister we would be those sister no one can have both .

I don't judge you out there who was with both or more siblings that's your choice, but I cant think about me that way. I would feel just cheep. 

Think twice. And whatever you decide just take the right decision so you can walk with your eyes facing the clouds..."

And the real story behind all of this being with two bros or sisters...Well you just don't meant nothing to them, that's one and you know it. If you want to get revenge on the first (because a lot of girls do this shit), well honey they will laugh at you because "bros before hos" and that's forever, and I still think you can do better than that. No judging, its just me... and of course "chicks before dicks "

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Xoxo Ybell