Behind the smile

There is a story behind every smile...I have never meet a person who smiles so often and doesn't have a story behind it. My story is my life.
It is not easy , like most of our live there are ups and downs, and we try to get at the end with glory. The sad part is there is easy way that most of you are choosing and the hard way that I always chose. When something is to easy to get , there I had learn something is wrong. When you take the hard path to climb , damn there are a lot of steps and a lot of darkness...but at the end there is that hand waiting for you to pull you up to the greatest achievement.
When you meet me , not see me, meet me, all you see is a smile and sparkle in eyes and funny stories and a lot of cupcakes and bubbles, What you don't know is what made me this way. Maybe that's a story I will never tell or maybe one day there will be a book about it.
Have you ever asked yourself why are you on this planet? why its you born there at those parents in that country. I did.. I still do that almost every night. Because the night gives me time to think when my mind need to rest it starts to work. And there are thousand and million of question but no answer. Nobody know what and why. You and only you have to decide how to make you're own life worth living. Now I know we are not all rich and not all of us are born millionaires and maybe you think for them it is easier, but believe me , its not. Not all you can buy with money. Some of us are lucky bastards and some just poor lovers.
I tend to think that all my life I had made bad decisions, took the wrong path even it was harder, maybe I should took the easy one... but then...where is all the fun? what would I tell about to my children's when there is not a good story its a simple one. My achievement's are not at the point I wanted to be in life and it made me so many times to get in a hard depression. Can you imagine that if you didn't took this path you're life would be different and I can not help myself but asking how would it be otherwise?
I am in my late twenties and I ask myself what did I do with my life? And then I think about others who didn't make not even a half of what i did....And then I remember of those who have everything at my age. Its hard and complicated and my path is full of ups and downs,and it hurts and its a lot of tears...But at the end of the day I am strong, survive and smiling.
I know I can , I don't need to know my purpose here, I will make it myself. My life is my life and I will live it the way I decide to. I am scared, but at the end of this journey I will smile with all my heart because I did it. No matter how hard it is I will fight for what I want and I will get it.
I believe in better tomorrow and I believe in magic.

xoxo Ybell